Monday, July 21, 2003
today was really eventful....
su...stay strong k.. if u havent read my OD go read la...
feli...
haiyoh...
i told her tt the person i like is haekal instead. i mean i think haekal is nice and all..n maybe i have a slight crush on him but i like feli more. and so i ave just proven to myself tt i dun like feli ttttttttttttttt much. you knw?
she went to meet saif. and he is sooooooo good looking. damN!!!!! so duh!!! she goes gaga over him. and here i am lost again. i can't tell her. i know now. but just now on the phone we were like competing to tell each other abt the guys in our lives. tts wat i felt anyways. when i say abt haekal ( which i do to get her a bit riled...which seems to work...cos she like not happy tt haekal say i am pretty... and she not happy tt haekal was very clsoe to me during dinner), she say abt saif. and abt how cute he is. then after tt she asks me how do u know when u like someone? then i ask her who is she considering. then she won't say the name. tot for a moment there she was thinkning of me. but oh well..tts wat i wld like to think but i know it is not true. then anyways... she say tt guy..then i like wat guy?? then she said saif so softly... god!! she thinks she might have a crush on him.. but u n i know better tt she is lusting...cos he looks good... she knows it too... told her to wait till she no longer sees him in a god like light. cos she is so obviously in awe of his good looks. i dunno la.... i mean i'd be happy for her..but i dun want to feel like such an asshole alone...and she happy with someone..n here i am pining for her. i still want to kiss her. guess i m lusting too... i am lusting after a lot of ppl... but i really think haekal is very cool... so so cool... touched by wat he did yest... hehe.... he's such a sweet guy... :)
--insignificant lies--
2:16 am
